Today is really hard. I did a lot yesterday. When I wasn’t so ill, it would have been just a day. Now that my body sucks and it doesn’t work properly its harder and harder. I’m in so much pain. I’m so sad. I’m so tired. And I don’t have any more energy to keep doing this. I am so sick of being in pain and not being allowed to say it, do anything about it, get help for it. I feel done. Its too much.
I suffer from Chronic Pain. Its taking all the strength I have not to delete that statement. I feel that as soon as someone knows I have chronic health issues they make assumptions about me. I’m lazy, or over-dramatic, or I just want attention. Full Disclosure, I am TOTALLy lazy and overdramatic, but those things have nothing do with my illness. More like exist in SPITE of my illness. Everything I do is in spite of my illness. One of the issues that causes me daily pain is my herniated discs. I have them in my back and neck. Its debilitating. I’ve had all the treatments, nerve medication, lidocaine patches,…