Today is really hard. I did a lot yesterday. When I wasn’t so ill, it would have been just a day. Now that my body sucks and it doesn’t work properly its harder and harder. I’m in so much pain. I’m so sad. I’m so tired. And I don’t have any more energy to keep doing this. I am so sick of being in pain and not being allowed to say it, do anything about it, get help for it. I feel done. Its too much.